nonsense

i just feel so small right now.. i feel like i can't do anything.. i want to have a job and earn some money to fulfill my needs, as well as my baby's needs.. i don't think that my "BOYFRIEND" knows shat i need.. he doesn't even ask about it.. he doesn't even feel it.. why is he so numb about MY NEEDS??? maybe this sounds so selfish . . . but maybe i just remember how i loved myself and how my parents lavished me with love and fulfilled my needs before he came and took me away from the abundant life that i had.. he took me away from my family, and so it is his duty to at least be responsible enough to take care of me.. he takes care of basketball more than me & our baby.. does it still make sense if i marry him? or will it be more sensible to live a life of my own (with my baby) away from him?